Well.....no one died.
But, a trip back home sparked a couple thoughts in my brain..a couple surprising.
Someones unexpected anticipation, all the well worth it......somehow i feel a bit shocked.
I know you know.
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
I Can't hide it anymore.
By God, I've tried. Call me crazy.... I don't care who sees this. You meant more to me than anyone I ever loved at all. 'Cause I don't know who i am without you, all i know is that I should.The thought of another hand on you hurts more than any worldly pain to me. I feel like I'm living inside a ghost....a time machine if you will, that leaves me stuck in moments and refuses to let me move forward. I know you'll never see this, and I know that if you do it probably won't mean anything anymore.....but just know one more thing...
Your playlist never leaves my i tunes, and everything I pretended to hate.... I never did, and you are everything I ever wanted......maybe one day you'll realize that, and know that I'm always here. I applaud for trying to be so strong, but I think that you and I both know.........I'll always be here, and I'll always hold that place in your heart.....as you do mine.
Saturday, July 4, 2009
dreams are somtimes better kept that way.
It's been a few months since I have written here. But I figured why not come back with a story worth telling. The human psyche can be the most blissful thing to connect yourself with, and it can be your worst enemy, all of which we take for granted and never take a chance to give a second thought.
Well my friends, my brain almost put me into shock the other night. I had a dream, so real, so vivid, that when I awoke, I felt like the mattress was some sort of landing pad....I even woke up with a head ache.
So here I go, time to recollect...
Sunny day..... Wrightsville beach, a place everyone is familiar with, I wake up in the sand wearing a plain white shirt and khaki shorts ( pretty ironic all beach family photos carry the same attire.). I stand up and brush all the sand off, I'm not wearing shoes and there are none in sight. The sand in my eyes only makes things harder to make out, but I do notice there is not a soul here, Not even a gull searching for dollar menu french fries to munch on. So, even in a dream state i find this to be pretty odd. But for some reason, I turn my head towards the pier, (Not really sure which one it is, but it's there.) And i see a figure in the distance walking towards me, and still my vision is engulfed in sand, so i clear my eyes and the figure gets closer. And in that moment, I felt my heart skip a beat.........It was her. (she will remain nameless.) I was so overwhelmed, i began to sweat....not because I was overheating, but just for the simple fact that I could'nt believe my eyes. She stops in front of me, with a smile that could make a hurricane stop in it's tracks and simply says " Hey stranger." and opens her arms. God, I went weak at the knees and just grabbed her and held her so tight that I was surprised I did'nt hear bones breaking. I spun her around her around and set her back down. I could'nt keeps my eyes off of her, she was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. And I said " It still feels like yesterday, and the only thing that has kept me going this long is hoping to wake up to this day....I love you so much, please don't ever leave me again.". She brushed the hair out of her face, And grabbed mine and held me in for a kiss that felt like days were passing, but in that moment....It was like i could feel the earth stop and stare. But in a split second a voice in the distance called her name.... and I'm looking off in the distance trying to make sence of it. She fixes her eyes of into the distance and says "I have to go, I'm sorry Chip.". She pulls away and runs off into the distance....And I drop to my knees in the sand, out of breath and in a daze, yelling at the top of my lungs....
Then reality gives me a swift kick to the face and I wake up.....my house is the same as I left it, But I feel like I've been gone for days....and I cant help but bawl my eyes out ( whatever, dudes have emotions too, they just try not to show em'.).
So, never take your mind for granted, Because it will piick you up and bring to the highest point, and sure enough...drop you back on your ass to fend for yourself....Another reason I think that Robocop has it waaaayy easier than anyone in the universe.
Well my friends, my brain almost put me into shock the other night. I had a dream, so real, so vivid, that when I awoke, I felt like the mattress was some sort of landing pad....I even woke up with a head ache.
So here I go, time to recollect...
Sunny day..... Wrightsville beach, a place everyone is familiar with, I wake up in the sand wearing a plain white shirt and khaki shorts ( pretty ironic all beach family photos carry the same attire.). I stand up and brush all the sand off, I'm not wearing shoes and there are none in sight. The sand in my eyes only makes things harder to make out, but I do notice there is not a soul here, Not even a gull searching for dollar menu french fries to munch on. So, even in a dream state i find this to be pretty odd. But for some reason, I turn my head towards the pier, (Not really sure which one it is, but it's there.) And i see a figure in the distance walking towards me, and still my vision is engulfed in sand, so i clear my eyes and the figure gets closer. And in that moment, I felt my heart skip a beat.........It was her. (she will remain nameless.) I was so overwhelmed, i began to sweat....not because I was overheating, but just for the simple fact that I could'nt believe my eyes. She stops in front of me, with a smile that could make a hurricane stop in it's tracks and simply says " Hey stranger." and opens her arms. God, I went weak at the knees and just grabbed her and held her so tight that I was surprised I did'nt hear bones breaking. I spun her around her around and set her back down. I could'nt keeps my eyes off of her, she was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. And I said " It still feels like yesterday, and the only thing that has kept me going this long is hoping to wake up to this day....I love you so much, please don't ever leave me again.". She brushed the hair out of her face, And grabbed mine and held me in for a kiss that felt like days were passing, but in that moment....It was like i could feel the earth stop and stare. But in a split second a voice in the distance called her name.... and I'm looking off in the distance trying to make sence of it. She fixes her eyes of into the distance and says "I have to go, I'm sorry Chip.". She pulls away and runs off into the distance....And I drop to my knees in the sand, out of breath and in a daze, yelling at the top of my lungs....
Then reality gives me a swift kick to the face and I wake up.....my house is the same as I left it, But I feel like I've been gone for days....and I cant help but bawl my eyes out ( whatever, dudes have emotions too, they just try not to show em'.).
So, never take your mind for granted, Because it will piick you up and bring to the highest point, and sure enough...drop you back on your ass to fend for yourself....Another reason I think that Robocop has it waaaayy easier than anyone in the universe.
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