I Can't hide it anymore.

By God, I've tried. Call me crazy.... I don't care who sees this. You meant more to me than anyone I ever loved at all. 'Cause I don't know who i am without you, all i know is that I should.

The thought of another hand on you hurts more than any worldly pain to me. I feel like I'm living inside a ghost....a time machine if you will, that leaves me stuck in moments and refuses to let me move forward. I know you'll never see this, and I know that if you do it probably won't mean anything anymore.....but just know one more thing...

Your playlist never leaves my i tunes, and everything I pretended to hate.... I never did, and you are everything I ever wanted......maybe one day you'll realize that, and know that I'm always here. I applaud for trying to be so strong, but I think that you and I both know.........I'll always be here, and I'll always hold that place in your heart.....as you do mine.